I WANT OUT

Out of this skin

Out of this life

I feel the click of too flat teeth

And ache for something between them

Soft and yielding

To rend and tear and split and

I know the blood would be sweet

Although I do not know how

How can you know something will be good

Even though you’ve never had it?

How can you know something will hurt you

Just from listening?

With ears that hear everything

The electricity in the walls

The thump of a heart

Like a drumbeat

I hear the stars you know

I hear the moon sing

It says to me

Here here here I am childsonmonsterthing

Come and run and howl and play and be you be you be you

But moon mother who is that?

What is that?

What is the thing I am does it have a name?

The stars all laugh and the people all talk and I am tired

I want to rend and tear

I want to sleep forever

Hidden and safe

In this warm body that everyone sees as harmless

But my fingers curl like claws

Ten phantom limbs

That would make the world realize they hate me

So I hide

In this cage of bone and blood and girlgirlgirl

But I

Want

OUT