clunky purple headphones are my safeguard are my switchblade as i swivel as i dart down on the way home from the bus / stop and think that i am worthy stop and think that i am sacred stop and think that i can do this am i foolish am i freakish am i / crazy faggots want your children crazy faggots want attention crazy faggots want to pee to fuck to work and find the time to find someone to / love the way you need me baby don’t you know i need this baby out in public yolk me baby know you’ll fuck me hold me kiss me call me / baby trans girl hates her body baby trans boy hates his hometown baby trans kids skipping school now forget math class add the laws now add the laws that want them dead now add the laws that want us gone now muzzle up their tender cries of / is desperation all we have now? when desecration is the law now? false devotion all i am now? light me up and watch me fuse out like the faggot that i / am i stupid that i stay here am i stupid that i love here am i stupid that i dance and drink and dare to build a stupid life / here he sat between us are we dating what’s the sex like can he ride me like a new bike can he spot himself a real dyke does he wonder what i / amimovingtoofast? do my poems re a dt o o s l o w? do the pronouns in my email make you wonder where my dick goes when i / go to work on sunday go to work on monday go to school on tuesday single file in the stack house blistered heels i blew my back out swollen ankles find their way out force my hand i fall in line all day and i can barely
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and pledge allegiance to a nation caked in chaos to a nation spewed on sidewalks where my life’s worth less than egg costs to a nation leaving me / lost another best friend lost another elder lost another dollar spent on bullshit that i’d really rather / save your empty gestures save your courthouse jesters save your infographics free hugs and your facebook cries for / better us than you huh better me than you huh better fake cry better hold space cuz you know they’ll kill us off when they cannot restrain or keep us /
down bad shitty poems shitty sonnets shitty screenplays keep creating keep resisting keep existing will i ever make it / out of nowhere panic every bathroom visit bank deposit late night gas trip godforsaken midnight / comfort comes in waves now come and touch me here now come and kiss my neck my chest the space between my teeth now steal the love i know will save us kill the fear they use to maim / us cuz us is all i have now us is all we have now us becomes the bed the frame the pillow where
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